i don't know.

i don't have the words. i haven't for months.

i have

been thinking a lot. i have a short list of the many dumb things that put me where i am right now. i'll be sharing them with you soon. i have to.

how to disappear completely!

ask me how. i've gone and done it.

shortest vacation recap ever.

it was great. i love my east coast friends, my brooklyn friends were such great hosts. that being said, i could never live on the east coast, i think. too intense. i don't understand anything that anyone is saying. portland is in the cards. eventually.

i believe in the future.

i made it! the winter is just about finally over. we were in this weird winter/spring mix for awhile. maybe we aren't out yet. music is awesome.


and so is advice dog.

trimming the fat.

i'm lopping off whole albums, off of my iPod. i want to get back "there." you know? do people read this shit? i feel as though i have spread myself too thin with as many blogs as i have.

i need to get home soon and get some damn exercise. i'm surviving. work is burying me, i feel like i'm spinning my wheels. i need to get through this winter. after that, everything is easy. i think.

Missing.